You gotta understand I don’t go on my tumblr anymore to try and impress little a.b.g’s I write from the bottom of my heart, and I try my best to stay as humble as I can. But my life has been nothing but a bunch of up’s and down’s. Nothing has really been working out for me recently. I try to succeed in life. But it feels as if though I take 2 steps forward and then somehow some way life has a way of pushing me 4 steps back. I want the love of a girl, the wanting of my parents, and for myself to be happy. That is alot to ask for I know. But at the end of the day who has the love to give to me. No one. Sadly life is just upon that way and we can only try to survive and thrive on. I miss alot of things in my life. Ex girlfriends, past memories, my parents loving me, and just the old me. But from what I hear, and from what I’m told, you must go rock bottom before you can really know what the good in life is.